Motherly

My non-weather word for today is motherly. Or something like that... Some of you know the hard time I have had the past year with my dear little boy. He has been a somewhat difficult child in a very difficult year. Some days I would count down the minutes till the hubby got home so I can get away from him a bit. Since he hit his first birthday he has been improving in his moods and the extreme whining is starting to die down reminding me why I wanted a child in the first place. Today was a beautiful day. Something was so different about the way I felt about my little boy and its hard for me to put it into words. So here is my best try. When he is happy, you can't help but be happy, his smile is so beautiful and the way his little blue eyes sparkle... He was happy all day today. I got to see that smile so many times. We went to the park across the street and he just LOVES the slide his little squeals of delight are so insanely cute. As I sat a little ways away from him watching him play in the sand, I felt it. A realization that he is part of me, he is my little boy and he is beautiful. So happy with who he is and eager to see the world around him. I just wanted to hold him, cuddle with him and absorb his simple joy with the little things. How I love my little boy. I want to be just like him. I want to be better for him. I want to be a healthy happy mommy for him.